Being head of the National Gallery in Ottawa was what my parents envisioned for me. Something dramatic had to change such rigorous expectations. A woman from an intellectual, professional family where success is presumed, is brought up with such strictures around what is expected that she does not naturally gravitate outside peoples’ comfort zones! Although my parents are long gone, the family still does not mention what I do. There was a high price to pay. I had to be utterly convinced in my bones that this was why I came to the planet and the story may interest you.
Fortunately, my mother had primed me for mystical experience by telling me of her own but I didn’t give it much thought beyond “interesting”. That was until, sitting in a bathtub in Paris, I had my own. Alone in the apartment where I was working “au pair” to learn French, the bathroom suddenly filled with an effulgence of light so strong I could barely make out the sink across the small room. A feeling of Love beyond anything I’d ever experienced overcame me. I remember actually pinching myself as tears were running down my face. I could make out two beings of light next to the tub; they were tall and where their heads would have been was a bright ball of light. My only context at that time was Christ – so that is how I described it to the few people I trusted to tell. Even so, I was not “religious” but it made me more spiritually oriented. No messages were given ; the Presence was enough. I never forgot it but neither did I do anything about it.
Twelve years later I was reading in bed. I was, by then, a young mother, who took yoga and was reading about yogic levels of reality. Without warning, suddenly I changed into a column of light – like a laser beam. All sense of a physical body was gone leaving only Light, and overpowering Love. Tears of joy poured down my face, unthinkable to stop; I was in another realm entirely. It seemed to last for a minute or so before I gradually came back to “myself”. I was completely awestruck by this experience. Nothing I had ever read prepared me for such a thing and I began a search for people who understood about “white Light”.
The experience ended my marriage because my husband did not understand and had only disparaging words to offer. Suppressed issues surfaced, leading eventually to divorce. The upheaval that ended my conventional life was a very confusing, emotional time for many. Worlds shifted. Birthing of the new can be dramatic and painful for those caught in the wake: my husband, my son, my parents, some relatives and friends were all caught in this tidal wave of change. Amidst the grieving for all that was lost, I met a group of people who had some understanding of “white light” and my own personal healing journey began. Within ten years, I had taken a course in Gestalt, done Jungian dream work and begun healing training in New York with Barbara Brennan.
Another surprise came when Barbara Brennan called for volunteers to do an exercise in front of the class. I did what she instructed and didn’t think much more about it until she asked me afterwards if I had done any healing training. “No”, I said. She was amazed and that gave me some new clues.
Although I was already on the “Path”, another shift was in store. After graduating from the first healing training, at age 52, I was standing doing yoga in my living room when another, new wave of Light literally brought me to my knees. This lasted for about half an hour. Again, I was overcome with Love, impossible to describe, that brought tears of joy coursing down my cheeks. After it faded, I managed to book myself into the Kabbalistic Healing training workshop on Ecstacy that I knew was taking place in Boston. This led to my training in Integrated Kabbalistic Healing, a three year course in New Jersey.
Things have been quiet since. I know without a doubt I am doing what I came to do – a vocation, hardly a “job”. Sacred Light that encompasses all religion is part of my world now so it doesn’t need to dissolve human plans and constructs. I listen carefully to “leadings” as Quakers call Guidance, so that I know I’m on the right track. It has never led me astray.
One very powerful thing I teach people is how to contact and expand the Divine Spark each of us has in our Core. Being Divine, it convinces anyone of the power of Light and heals a myriad of ills.
One thing that is important in my work is bridging worlds. When I meet people, they see a conventional, very “un-flakey” professional woman. In my treatment room you will see very few New Age things. I want clients to feel comfortable and reassured of solid, reliable help. An intake form reassures them further that they are in safe, well-grounded hands.
The safer people feel, the greater will be their healing. Offering this opportunity is why I am here and it took some extraordinary events and a good deal of upheaval to make that happen.